Choked on own redemption in this dark night without end,
at the failed attempt to hold the last of grounds
What bitter irony in this cadaverous obedience
Punctured lung prayer, stiff limb gesture
As the pillars of ego collapse under his gentle, wounding hand
Arche point blank, fastforward theosis
Caressing teeth of a starving God
A communion with the void
Numb. Stray. Truth/lie redefined.
Onward thanatos, onward destrudo,
Onward death and onto the great darkness!
Cease and abandon
I shall cease and I shall abandon.
I shall revert, descend.
Become as a stone the temple is founded upon.
Become a stone. Numb. Stray.
Ripe for conversion
Track Name: Fear and loathing in Gethsemane
I! - the wanderer, between these sins and sights (worlds of sins)
Like a shattered vessel, never to sail these waters again
Found nothing ascending into the highest suns
I have descended to the borders of divine being
World as a gateway to dark and cold deserts
Of Mute Inanimate Nothing
Who once lost what I have lost
Will never rest under this tree again
I've entered the path I never ever wanted
I lost this life for ash and mud
My father left me the way I never wanted
And now keeps silent in my last sacrifice
Eloi Lama Sabachthani
Only emptiness stares at me from the abyss